i need some down time. i've become a different person these past few days. my hours are all off. i'm not sleeping well. i'm not eating well. so i'm pretty much not feeling well. i see my grandparents over meal times. and that's still maybe. my smiles are limited. my conversation is reduced to yes or no answers. i'm studying constantly. if i'm not studying i'm thinking about studying. i'm thinking about what i just studied. or what i need to study. yesterday morning i found my hand shaking as i was holding my pen. my body is tired. my mind is tired. i'm so distracted. this is not me. i'm having serious doubts about being a doctor. i can't be like this.