nothing comes easy right. without hard work you can't get anywhere. we see it in our parents. day in day out they work so hard to take care of us. how ungrateful i am that i don't even attempt to do the same. i'm not talking about attaining status in this world. i'm talking about the hereafter. to make the sacrifices and to reach for the highest. we do what we can and we assume it's enough. whereas it's really not. there's no upper limit. definitely a lower limit to how much i can sink. we justify oh we've got the basics covered. i believe. i pray. i read Quran. i fast. i give when i can. i intend to go for hajj. i'm nice to people. so yeah. i'm good to go. but what we don't realize is that sometimes what we assume is good enough we don't even know if we've got the fundamentals. a close relative of mine said what we don't sometimes accept is that Allah swt does not need us that we need Allah swt in all aspects. He can do everything without us but we cannot do anything without Him. i believe that. so why am i not living like that? probably cause it's hard. if i'm honest with myself i've started avoiding hard work because i'm afraid of failure now. which is not the type of person i want to be. i want to be the type that rises to the challenge. i don't know what happened to that side of me. it was a tad [as in very] snooty but at least i wasn't afraid of committing myself to something and then sweating it out and working through it. i hope that changes about me. every time i pray i pray i'll change. i'll change for the better inshAllah. prayer alone won't do it though. my actions. my deeds. they have to change for me to change. prayer and work side by side. so please pray for my venture for hard work