things are changing so fast for me. it's hard to keep up. almost overwhelming. almost. i like to think i can handle things on my own but instead of being positive i have this terrible habit of [and i am positive my abu ji can vouch for this] saying i don't know. i'll give all my ideas and say i don't know. i'll do the work and say i don't know. i thought it was a phase but it's not going away. so when i really don't know. say like right now. then i feel like things are upside down and nobody really knows that i can't handle what is being served. eh *shrug* i don't know.